Khamosiyaan....

May 13, 2013—the day the rot set in. Not in the earth, but in the marrow of what I once called a soul. She slipped through my fingers like smoke from a pyre, and I let her. No, *willed* her to vanish. My hands were already claws by then, slick with the oil of every choice I carved into my own spine.   To love her was to flay myself alive. A sacred thing, they say—love. But mine? It was a *ritual*. Offered my ribs as kindling, let her burn her name into the walls of my lungs. Now they collapse with every breath. Ash where there was air.   But the abyss… it *whispers*. You think you’ll mourn in the dark? No. The dark *feeds*. It peels back your eyelids and says *look what you’ve made*. A carcass of a man, gutted and repurposed. I wear greed like a second skin now. Devour morals like they’re crumbs. My reflection? A stranger with my face, grinning with teeth I don’t recognize—jagged, hungry, *pleased*.   You want purity? Go dig for it in the gravey...

The descendants are not blood, but echoes—   ghost-whispers etched in the marrow of your becoming,   a cipher spiraling through the blackened mirrors   of every ancestor’s unwept tear.   Truth isn’t buried; it *breathes* where you refuse to look—   in the fissured atlas of your guilt,   the silent pact with the wolf at the spine’s root,   the way your laughter fractures when moonlight   touches the scars you’ve renamed "strength."   The dark side of the soul isn’t a place—   it’s the choreography of all you’ve exiled:   hungers that outlive their cages,   fables your hands wrote in the womb’s ink   before the world forced them to forget.   To solve the riddle of your lineage,   dig where the map bleeds—   where shadows aren’t flaws, but the braille   of a deeper gravity.   The crypt is you. ...

We tremble in the undertow of flesh—   a symphony of gasps, a riptide of fingers.   Her voice cracks the night like a vow,   each scream a rebellion against the quiet   of what we’re *supposed* to be.   This is how holiness unravels:   not with a fall, but a *leap*—   morality dissolves into stardust   as desire stitches itself back   into something feral, alive.   We are the reckoning.   The altar.   The forbidden psalm hummed into sweat.   Tell me, when the body becomes a cathedral,   what survives of the soul?   Touch her like a confession.   Let the world burn   in the furnace of *yes*.   Here, in the ruins of restraint,   we become both the sin   and the sacrifice.  

A full simulation of a quantum particle in a gravitational field.  In this project, we do three things: 1. Stationary State Analysis: We set up the time‐independent Schrödinger equation for a particle in a gravitational potential -\frac{\hbar^2}{2m}\frac{d^2\psi}{dz^2} + mg\,z\,\psi = E\,\psi, 2. Analytical Comparison via Airy Functions: For the linear potential with a hard wall at , the ground state solution is known (up to normalization) to be given by an Airy function \psi(z) \propto \mathrm{Ai}\Bigl(\frac{z-E/(mg)}{z_0}\Bigr), z_0=\Bigl(\frac{\hbar^2}{2m^2g}\Bigr)^{1/3}. 3. Time Evolution Simulation: We then propagate an initial Gaussian wave packet using the Crank–Nicolson scheme to solve i\hbar\frac{\partial\psi}{\partial t} = H\psi, --- %% Quantum Particle in a Gravitational Field: Full Simulation and Analysis % This script performs: % (i) A stationary state analysis of a quantum particle in a gravitational field, % (ii) A comparison of the numerical ground state with the...