Khamosiyaan....

Stare into the dark, your shadow consumes, Your eyes reflect nothing, pain in the mist, glooms. I hear the silent screams, Of the victims you graciously met, The drip-drop of blood pools at my feet, The wounds these people kept. You open your crimson mouth, A soul with vampire fangs, The dead silently still, Escaped, some people hang. Excepting my fate, I raise my head, chin to neck, Welcoming you to drink, everything you need, except..... The numbers before,  Did not want this fate, They feared and hid from you, You were something that they hate... But I on the other hand, am yours to drain, deplete, Because the pain you will give me, makes my happiness complete. Please Pierce my skin, let my life flow down your throat, I desperately need to be like you... Because this life that passes fills me with hope... I cry out in pain, I almost sound obsessed, Now I walk the earth at night.... From the moment I take my last breath..  ...

as i lay here on my bed i think of all the pain that u given me i think of all the hatred that u made me feel, i slowly creep down stairs, and grab the thick sharp knife cannot stop me know for after this it is all over, tears of sorrow spill down my cheek, but its the hatred that keeps me going, i put the knife tightly in my fist as it glides slowly down my wrists, all the blood pours down my arm and all the pain suddenly drifts away, my mind goes blank, i have no fear, for i only want to disapear, its is all too late you cant stop me now, i wonder were i will go after this ..... probably to HELL.

My Death note..... August 3, 2016 Listen Up Dumbs: Most people kill themselves because of a mental condition. This is true in my case too. The condition I suffer from is that I am not normal, I am not like everyone of you "sane" people. I am not normal in the sense that I am not like every other one of you brain-dead zombies. I can think. I can reason intelligently. I c an observe and learn from life. I can make my own decisions and follow through on them. And I can do these without any aid from celebrities, T.V., radio or MySpace. Unfortunately, every one of you shit-brained lemmings seem to lack these skills and I can't fucking take it any more. Since everyone else in this world is a fucking retarded drone who revels in their ignorance and unintelligence, I must put an end to my misery. I truly wish I was normal. I wish I could be a fucking retarded sponge like all of you. I wish I could have the same conversations day in and day out about sports, poli...